Your circle of friends will decrease. You will begin to notice that the usual conversations with friends and acquaintances somehow do not stick. Everything seems to be as it was, but for some reason it is less interesting. Because you will no longer be able to maintain conversations that everything is bad and everyone around is bad, the work does not inspire and the business does not go well, the husband is disgusted and the wife is to blame for everything. You will stop playing games because it takes at least two to play by the rules. And that is why for your friends you will become a very uncomfortable person who spoils the whole game and shows with all kind that the king is naked.
It will become hard for you to work in a job you don't like and do something that doesn't make sense. Thus, either you choose to get involved in the current activity as much as possible, or you will radically change it. If in your old job you were kept by necessity, fear, habit or automatism, it will immediately come to the surface and you will have to do something about it.
Your relationship will begin to burst at the seams. Because most relationships are not a solid union of equals, but a tangle of interdependencies and compensation. Feeling that he is losing you, the partner will make every effort to bring you back, but you will react to all reproaches with surprise and incomprehension, as to the attempts of an alien to establish contact with you in the Martian language.
You will feel lonely. Because all unnecessary and fake connections that were built on insufficiency, emptiness, consumerism and selfishness will fall off. And this new, don't understand where, the emptiness formed, at first will frighten, like a gaping abyss, but gradually it will begin to fill with exactly what is alive and present in you.
You cannot deceive yourself or others. Almost physically (like Pinocchio with a growing nose) you will feel any inner lie - in words, thoughts and actions. And it will be just disgusting, because every time you say something that is not what you really think, you will feel the grinding of cat claws in your soul. And no, it doesn't turn off.
You suddenly find that people around you are suffering a lot. And they do not suffer from a hard life - on the contrary, everything is in order with their lives. They suffer from the illusion that something is wrong with their lives. And if before you were too busy living your own suffering, now you will begin to live all the suffering of the people around you, because your own will no longer be. And at this moment you will have only one thing - to help everyone and everyone at every moment of time, with what you can - because it will be simply impossible in another way.
Your picture of the world will collapse. And you will understand that there is not only your correct opinion and all the others are wrong, but an endless space of options and possibilities. And all the restrictions are nothing more than an illusion you have invented.
You have to take responsibility for yourself. You will understand that you have nothing to expect from anyone, and no one owes you anything. Everything that is in your life does not depend on external factors, a stupid boss, an incomprehensible partner and the bitcoin rate, but on yourself. You live exactly the life you deserve, and you won't have anything else until you take responsibility for what you have. But it is at this moment that personal responsibility will cease to be a burden from which one must flee, sparkling with heels or dump it on others, it will become the only true and logical order of things.
And so, day after day, everything superficial, artificial and hypocritical, will begin to crumble, exposing the inner voids. And all the present will come to light, grow, break through, strengthen and take root in you. And this is far from a gentle and pleasant process. Often this is a crushing breakdown of habits and automatisms acquired over the years. But when you get out from under the rubble of shattered mental templates, you will understand that it was worth it.
